I feel as if this blog is useless but I like it

I am very tired but, alas, I cannot sleep. I'm not sure what is going on with my entrails but I would appreciate a little shut eye. I have read through many a blog tonight and let's just say that might be my new favorite creeper deal. I find people so fascinating. Though I follow mostly fashion and beauty related blogs, I have noticed there is so much more to the "gurus" than fashion of the days and foundation routines. They are human.

Humans are not new to society but I am viewing them as if I have been walking with dinosaurs for the past eighteen years. For some reason I have always judged people (SAY WHAT?! You JUDGED people?!) based on their outward appearances. I know, I know. I have no room to really do such a horrid thing. I am not as skinny as Nicole Richie and not as overweight as Kirstie Allie. I am not Kim Kardashian with makeup and I resemble Egor without the face fixers. Nevertheless, I judged these people who have no reason to be judged. And now I am talking-- well typing-- about just beauty bloggers but am talking about the human race. I have judged the prettiest girl in school because I wanted that attention on my looks instead of my personality. I judged the homeless men and women on the street because I was too insecure to see the genuine sadness and grief on their faces. God did not make me any better than that bully in elementary school so why was I the bully in high school?

I have choices to make in life and struggles that I need to face. I need to make a choice to face these struggles head on and focus on the more important things in life: God, my family, my studies, my friends. From here on out I will start judging people less until soon I have an open mind to everyone.

I feel as if my eyes are heavy now. Too bad it is 5:47 in the morning and I have to wake up at 7 to get dressed in a striped shirt and pink bow headband. I kind of wish I could pull off the whole ripped jeans with a band t-shirt look but, alas, I am seen as the pinked out princess. HEY! JUDGEMENTS. I think I am going to gradually start dressing more adult. I want to start wearing cute shirts with blazers and start wearing less makeup. I like that idea. I am planning on giving some clothes and shoes I never wear to Good Will so I can start filling my wardrobe with pieces that reflect who I am today and who I will grow to be in the future.

Alright. I think an hour of sleep will be better than none. Here are some pictures of pretty things that made my eyes gleam with joy.

I Have Forgotten What Sleep Is

As you can tell by the title, I cannot sleep. It is now 4:40 in the morning and I skipped hanging with my friends to sleep... That did not happen. Oh well. Cannot go to everything, eh? Since I have an obsession with surveys, I figured I would do a couple I see floating around some of my favorite blogs. (: Here it goes.


1. Thing you cannot leave the house without?
Well, I live in a dorm so it changes depending on where I'm going. However, I take my school I.D., chapstick/lipgloss, and cell phone everywhere.
2. Favorite Brand of Makeup?
Probably ELF or NYC.
3.Favorite Flower?
Pink roses, sunflowers, and peonys.
4.Favorite Clothing Store?
Forever21, Image, Target.
5.Favourite Perfume?
Juicy Couture, Lacoste Touch of Pink, Marc Jacobs Hollywood.
6.Heels or Flats?
Flats.
7.Do you make Good Grades?
Very good grades.
8.Favourite colours
Pink, of course. If I had to pick other colors I would choose navy blue, sparkly, and grey.
9.Do you drink energy drinks?
Frequently.
10. Do you drink juice?
Fuse.
11.Do you like swimming?
Only in pools.
12. Do you eat fries with a fork?
No...?
13. Favorite Moisturizer?
Clinique.
14.Do you want to get married later on in life?
It's a goal.
15. Do you get mad easily?
Kind of.
16.Are you into ghost hunting?
I get scared too easily to get into that. :(
17. Any Phobias?
Birds, railing, fish.
18.Do you bite your nails?
No.
19.Have you ever had a near death experience?
Kind of but not really.
20. Do you drink Coffee?
I love it more than any drink except for peppermint teas.

What's your favorite make up look?
Pinks and browns blended together, black eyeliner winged out on top, purple eyeshadow on bottom lash line, lots of mascara, pale-ish face, bright pink cheeks, light pink lips. It's basically my everyday makeup routine when I do not smoke out my eyes with purple/blue/and black. I think of it as a mix between Barbie and Hello Kitty.
Do you have a beauty vice?
Pink nail polishes, glitter, lipgloss.
What part of your body do you love?
My eyes and legs.
Who is your beauty icon?
Paris Hilton, Ashley Olsen, Mandy Moore, and Heidi Montag.
What beauty product makes you feel instantly sexy?
Shiny pink lipgloss OR Colossal Lash mascara.
How do you look after your skin?
I drink water, tea, and eat fruit everyday.
What is your signature scent?
Probably Black Raspberry Vanilla by Bath and Body Works.
What are your haircare secrets?
I do not spend much time on my hair. It's my last priority when it comes to beauty.
How do you pamper yourself?
My princess naps and as bad as this is, I love vanilla ice cream with sprinkles and coffee or tea with it. :) It makes me feel happy and pretty.
What is your beauty pet peeve?
Too much blush (ICK) or girls who wear NOTHING. I have those days when I don't wear any makeup but everyone should wear some mascara and lipgloss every once in awhile.
What would your desert island must haves be?
My phone, iTouch, Mac, chapstick, my mommy, friends, and a Nicolas Sparks and Ernest Hemingway novel or five.
Finally, do you have a beauty philosophy?
Drink at least two glasses of water a day and eat a piece of fruit a day.

The Life of a College Student

For the past two days we have had snow days. Amazing? Yes. I slept till 1:30 Thursday and 3 on Friday (so yesterday) :D. Pathetic, I know. However, it was much needed. Thursday I just relaxed and watched a movie with a couple friends. Yesterday I woke up, turned in a paper, studied for my Psychology test coming up next week and then filmed for this little Facebook show I'm on called The Kelsey&Miranda Show. Then I went and got cheep coffee and ice cream so my new best friend Karah and I could watch Legally Blonde together, which is what we're doing now. :)

This movie is basically the reason i love pink and am as girly as I am today. :) LOVES IT.

Short post but I am really tired. Time for some movie watching and homework.

"Whoever said orange was the new pink was seriously disturbed." - Legally Blonde

Change of Music Equals Change of Life

Lately I have been reinventing my life, kind of turning it around. I think this is because of the change in music I have been enjoying. I feel as with my adulthood growing so is my music. Instead of rap, I love me some Florence and the Machine. Their music is so calming and relaxing. I want to download every song ever created-- they're genius.
I have also started dressing a little more age appropriate. Of course I always incorporate pink somehow but lately I have been ditching the over the top clothing I used to go for and picking one piece of clothing to be the key to the whole outfit. I am trying to gradually go for more neutral makeup looks as well. No longer a lot of glitter unless I am going out at night or if it seems to be perfect for the day. I actually have one makeup look that is now my everyday look which is odd. I love the liquid eyeliner pens (E.L.F has a GREAT one for only ONE dollar) and pretty browns mixed with a random color to make it pop look. And of course my pink lips. :)

I am also staying on top of my school work... ODD?! I finished a pretty awesome thesis paper and it was awesome. I also was told that I gave the best speech for my Comm3 class. WOOHOO. I like this being smart thing.

Now to show you pictures of stuff I am obsessed with.

Struggling

*I should be doing homework right now but I find this subject a little more important than the images and themes found in Oedipus.*

I am struggling with Christians right now. Not God by any means, I still believe in Him and love Him more than anything. However, my faith in fellow "Christians" is not something my heart is necessarily jumping for joy at right now.

Let me throw a couple questions out there for you to answer if you find yourself wanting to.

How, as "Christians", can we sit and complain about attending church/chapel everyday (or every week) and how much it "sucks" or how "boring" it is when we do not let ourselves give in to worshipping the Almighty One?

Why do we have our iPods in our ears singing along quietly to Christina Aguilera rather than singing loudly to our God above showing Him we DO actually care despite our actions?

We can just as easily go to church and worship Him just as easily as we go to a party and drink beer.
We can just as easily take communion just as easily as we can laugh about some guy who is singing Holy is the Lord a little bit too off key.
We can just as easily praise Jesus just as easily as we praise a football team.
We can just as easily proclaim our love for God to a non-believer just as easily as we shout praises to Taylor Swift or Barbie.
We can just as easily read our Bible just as easily as we read Seventeen magazine?

Need I go on?

I realize this makes me just as much of a hypocrite. I realize I have been one of the loudest complainers about chapel. I realize how much I have failed my God the past year. However, I also realize my faults, my hypocriticalness, my idiocy.

We need to stop complaining about chapel/church being boring and tedious when we are, in fact, the ones causing it to be that way. Maybe there are reasons why we have a Missions Minute. Why not show off someone who is actually doing God's will? I am sure they found some annoyances in the whole process but do you ever hear of them complaining? Not really. They are making the most of the life God gave them and WORSHIPPING Him. They are not sitting back being annoyed that the church isn't "hyphy" enough and listening to Rihanna.

My reason for this blog is not to throw stones, because who am I to condemn when I have done the same thing? My purpose of this blog is to bring up the matter of us "Christians" being selfish and thinking only of OUR wants and OURS desires and not our God's above.

I vote we all make an effort to find the meaning in the daily chapels and not to complain about church being so "boring". We need to get over those feelings.

*Jesus gave his life for us. Let's give Him twenty minutes a day. I mean, we are "Christians", right?*

Real Love. Does it Exist?

So right now I am finishing up The Bachelor in my room and wondering why I did not watch this with my friends. I was supposed to but took a nap and when I woke up I was just BLEH. I also put off my homework for that nap and thought maybe I could read while watching? Nope. Did not happen. However, this episode was a little off putting. Not only does Jake seem too good and too perfect to be REAL but these girls really appreciate him. I believe he wants real love but I do not see him as a long term type of guy.

The sad thing is is that I love Jake. He deserves a good girl but these girls are CRAZY weird. I see a couple normal girls I really like but otherwise this show makes me wonder if real love exists.

To me, the only real love we will ever feel is for God. I believe if you love him enough he will send you your soulmate. You must seek God first and you cannot rush into a relationship without God sending you the go ahead. This is something I need to keep reminding myself.

This is short but I must get my homework done in an hour. :)

Intro Blog

I was thinking about what to write this blog about when I realized this shall simply be used as an introduction blog is what this will be about.

I want this blog to just be somewhere I can talk about my beliefs, morals, daily ramblings, weekly scrutinies, life debacles, inner fights, and dreams. I want people to read this blog and feel inspired by my growth as the year, or however long I choose to do this blog for, progresses. Or even if no one reads this a place for me to just vent stuff to something other than a human because sometimes you need to get things written out to fully cope.

I promise I am not as corny as that paragraph just made me sound.

My first real post will be tomorrow. :)


Much love,
Kelsey